FACTzzZ

I know that there are ppl feel like slapping/punching/killing me, to wake me up from what has happen, from wake me up from what i'm doing. Hmmmm.....actually there's an incident that has happen quite some time ago. 1 friend of mine punched me on my face, not that real hard lah, but it hurts though :) , he wants to wake me up, he wants to see the usual self of me, the happy 1, and joke around 1. I don't hate or dislike him from doing that, because i know he meant well. Well, so ppl, don't need to know who is he, LOL....i scare you guys go kill him. Wahhahahaa......

Actually, to be frank, actually those ppl that know me long ago, all way before i got into my secondary school. I don't talk much, my personality and character was a quiet and innocent and simple boy. But as time goes by, especially after my 'O' Level, i realise that, if i continue the way i am, as a quiet and innocent and simple boy, i won't get anywhere, i won't get many friends, i won't get known by others. So i decided to change myself, so called FORCE myself to change to a talkative and joke around person. Surprising? Is true you know? If my secondary school friends can remember, i only talk and joke abit with ppl who i very familiar or close, i won't talk or joke with strangers so much. i won't take the initiative to go talk to strangers. If they can rememebr lah. So i decided to FORCE myself to change and got to what i m now. And to be frank again, i'm quite tired of all these, although i become more sociable and "Happy" guy, but all these are just on the surface thing. Not many ppl know what's underneath it, don't try to know it, cause you might got tired of it, you might regret knowing it, you might even think that i'm crazy.

LOL......I M CRAZY

HugZzz

How I wish i get to hug her now, just like me hugging the bottle in the pic. As tight as it is......

How I wish i can hug her to sleep now, just like the way me hugging the bottle in the pic......

How I wish we can get together, just like me in the pic with the bottle......

Status VS Vows VS Commitments

Status

Is It alright for you guys to get together with your lover,your girlfriend/boyfriend, but not together as GF/BF? LOL......confusing? finding me lame? Is like you and her/him getting together, thinking only as long as u 2 love each other, but doesn't mind not being "label" as GF and BF...

Vows
Vows are normally made on wedding ceremony between the groom and bride. Does Vows really mean so much and everything? Is Vows so important? Do i sound silly to ask these questions? LOL......I know Vows means so much, Vows are important, but you guys ever wonder Vows made during wedding may be fake? I believe in drama you guys have seen ppl marriage for the sake of getting the inherit from their in-laws, and they made vows to their partners for the sake of the inherit, but they in fact don't love their partners.

Commitments
Commitments, how much do you commit to your partners? Do you commit alot or alittle? I love this girl alot, and i really commit to her, and i believe that she's worth it. She's really a nice girl. That's all i can say, the rest for you ppl to find out. LOL......

Actually wad i wanted to say is, she once told me that she doesn't really mind about status, as long as she and i got together and love each other, does status really matters? After thinking about it, i actually think that ya, as long as we are together and love each other, do we have to tell other ppl that we are couples? I love her not for others to see, but for myself.

Some time ago, she told me about vows, married couples made vows during wedding ceremony, and the vows they made means something. We didn't make vows with each other, we can't compare ourselves with married couples. Maybe i didn't phrase it in a exact way of wad she say and my language isn't that gd too. I love her the way she is, i love her everything, including wad i did for her and wad she did for me. I just wanna tell her: 'I love you and i really do'......

Regardless whether it's in a relationship for a couple or married couples, there are commitments. Married couples made vows, but does the vows actually mean anything if one of them doesn't really love the other and have bad motive in the marriage and he/she doesn't commit to the other? But from me to her, we are not married(How i wish we are), but that doesn't means the lvl of commitment from me to her will be lesser than a married couples. I love her from the deepest part of my heart, i know i must have did something wrong, but all i ask for, is her to return to my side......things i did wrong, there's actually a reason behind it. But not everything has a reason behind for doing it and 1 of them is, "I Love Her".

李圣杰 - 重来

有多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害
深爱的人一离开
是我不敢
忽略你给我的爱
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的我
一切重头
真的需要你的我
只要你回头

现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你在泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要你的我
只要你回头

The Girl Next Door

Finally i found someone that knows this movie...wahahahhaa...but that person isn't looking at the same thing as me...but nvm....at least got someone know this movie...LOL....

Hmmm....Anyone out there got this movie? Or downloaded this movie? Can send to me please? drop me a note at the chatbox or msn me....thanks...if can make it to .mpg extension for me is besttttt....thanks...thanks alot....i need that movie alot...thanks...

Birthday Party @ MOS

Wooooohh Lalaaaa... it's Alex's gf(Evelyn)'s birthday. Happy Birthday to her, Happy Birthday to her, Happy Birthday to herrrrrr errr....Happy Birthday to herrr..... LOL..

Alex bro, i saw your blog and know you got license liao...congratz you, i guess i go clubbing can count on you liao...wahahaha....we bro right? so u can send me go and send me home...thanks, afterall we live so near..lol... This time round is Evelyn birthday we go celebrate there, next time is your wedding celebration? :P or is your license celebration 1st? LOL....

Anyway, we went there on Sat nite, Saturday nite fever. LOL.... Dancing Yeah, Dancing Yeah....Uh Uh Uh Uh Staying Alive Uh Uh Uh Uh Staying Aliveeee....we took a picture there, a group photo, but sadly, i wasn't in the pic, can you all believe it, the smallest guy in there isn't in the pic. OMG...lol...but nvm...i'm not the center of attraction. So is alright, lol....i know i'm there can liao. My frenz (JH and Ah Ren) got the pics in their blogs, can go see if you guys want. but you all won't see me there, so don't waste the time.

That nite, as usual, crowded with ppl.....tired to dance with my frienz, but they don't want to, some shy, some say to many ppl at dancefloor, some can't leave. So i went to dance myself, had a great time there, really had a great time there, it has been some time since i went clubbing...i hope can go there more often, likes to dance and get blast. Saw some NS frend, but lol...is over, i'm a NSman now....LOL....

That nite, got 3 bros got drunk and high, i really no see my bros in this situation before. I used to think 1 of them can drink....but i guess now, i don't really think so liao. the 2 couples left after some time, and left with me and 7 bros left, 8 of us, then 3 kena knock out, left 5, then 1 still dancing and missing when we about to leave...lol...so left 4, 4 of us to take care 3 knockouts, no problems, we are bros, relax, we not going to leave u guys there and kena rape :xx then we went in to look for the missing 1...and he came out...lol...telling us his experience in there...lol... I really have a fun nite and happy nite that nite. LOL.....fun and happy nite...

I want to thank Alex for inviting me to go, i want to thank Evelyn for her birthday. I want to thank everybody that are there, and makes everything so fun. Thanks Bros. I hope those bros that are knockout will want to go again, and everybody there that nite will go again. Hope they won't be afraid after those incidents and not go liao....Cause this is my 1st time go clubbing with them, hope it won't be the last time.

Alex, so are we going to MOS again for your license celebration? or going ZOUK? or PHUTURE? LOL

Love & Marriage

Got this from my friend's(JH) Blog:

A student ask a teacher, "what is love?"

The teacher said, "in order to answer your
question, go to the padi field and choose the
biggest padi and come back.

But the rule is: you can go throught them only
once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he
saw one big padi,but he wonders....may be there
is a bigger one later.

Then he saw another bigger one... but may be
there is a even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half of the padi
field, he start to realise that the padi is not as big
as the previous one he saw, he know he has
missed the biggest one, and he regreted.

So, he ended up went back to the teacher with
empty hand. The teacher told him, "...that is love,
you keep looking for a better one, but when later
you realise, you have already miss the person...."

:-

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your
question, go to the corn field and choose the
biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go throught them only
once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the corn field, this time he is
careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he
reach the middle of the field, he has picked one
medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back
to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring
back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice,
and you have faith and believe this is the best one
you get.... that is marriage

ANNIVERSARY

This post is suppose to be posted yesterday, but i decided to post it today. You guys must be wondering, wad m i doing, throughly disappointed at me.

Yesterday, was my 2yr Anniversary with her, supposedly to be 1, but it ended up, so there isn't any 2yr Anniversary. I still remember our 1yr Anniversary, we didn't celebrate cause i'm very tired that day after work. I didn't forget our 1yr Anniversary, but i guess she thought i forget about it and she was very upset about it. She gave me a call, ask me why i didn't go look for her and go out together. I told her i'm tired after work, and she accepted the reason with sadness, then she asked how come i didn't call her if i didn't go, i reply her saying i'm about to call her which i really was about to call her and she called me. After saying a few sentences, she hanged up the fone, before she hanged up i told her tml lets go out, she say ok.

Next day, after i bk out, i went over to her place to look for her, just when she's preparing to go out, her mum came back, and i greet her. She saw me and she smiled, after awhile she asked me about yesterday, how come we didn't go out, she said she saw her dressing up nicely and readily and was waiting for me. I lost my words, i asked her when she came out and she say ya, she did, and i didn't appear. At the moment and even till now, i still feel, upset, sad, i couldn't describe the sadness that is in me. Can't find any word for it, your gf dressed up and was waiting for u to celebrate our 1st Anniversary, and yet i stood her up...

Wad can i say and wad you guys wanna say about me?

Adventurous

The Adventure of getting my Pink IC

It started with my clearance form, i left with only 3 signatures to complete my clearance form in exchange for my ord. Early Afternoon i get my 2 of the 3 signatures, and left with the final 1, my School Sergeant Major (SSM). But my hair is too long, he definitely won't sign my clearance form cause of my long hair. I need to go to the barber, haizzz, but the barber only come in in the afternoon. I go to her at 1plus, to my surprise i saw my SSM there, i got the 4th in queue, then i quickly go for the haircut then go back take my form to his office and sign.

Chiong ar, reach his office, saw my colleague there and they say he wasn't in the office and he should be at outfield, wah...sian...my ORD day, pls don't tell me i have to go back the next day, i run to the barber there, hopefully to find him there, walk till half way, saw my other frenz, he say he saw him at cafe there, i ran to there. Saw him there.....WwooooooooO...happy happy, let him sign, then chiong to HQ Manpower to get my IC, run and run, almost reaching then found out i drop my camp pass, shit....jialat, got to look for it. Trace back and search for it until i sweat like hell, finally found it. This time round, i run to the Manpower with my pass on my hand.

Reach there, my other friend who suppose to give me my pink ic, he asked for my Certificate of Service, wah sian, i left it in my office, run all the way back, and run back to Manpower to get IC, go till there, he ask for my red and blue booklet, shit....damn it, forget to take, in my office too, run back and get them and go back to manpower again, then he finally give me back my pink IC.

This adventure story very boring and uninteresting right? LOL.....if you are in my shoes and on the ground...u will be more damn sian.....lol....run here and run there. LOL......i very stupid and blur right? Blur like sotong, Blur like hell, Blur like a idiot....If only she's by my side...Things really will turn a different way...

I'm being stupid, I'm being stubborn, but everything is from the bottom of My Heart.....

ORD LO

Finally i ORD le, today then post because yesterday went out to play for a while, then evening go watch soccer match at tampines stadium, let's not talk about the match because is so fuk up.Hmmm.....my ORD day, 070507, i will always remember it cause i had a adventure that day. Later i will post my adventure out...lol...

Guys and Friends out there still in NS, your day will come. Gd luck to you all. Now i'm waiting for my reservice letter only...

Pink IC HERE I COME!!!

Today is the BIG Day, the once in a lifetime thing, my ORD...going to get my pink IC back today le...hopefully can get back smoothly. Haha, still need a few more signatures for my clearance and i hope i can get it by today and no need to go back tml for them.

Sadly, today suppose to be a happy day. I m abit happy for i'm getting out of NS already, but i'm not really extreme happy cause is like no one for me to share the joy with, the person that i want to share with and would have share with me for being by my side through the whole thing, but it ended 5months ago. I couldn't help but to think of it. I called her and wanted to ask her out for a small celebration but she rejected me, she say that she's not free and she wish me for finally getting back my IC already.

Should i be happy about her wishing or should i be sad that she isn't here for everything and a small celebration that i want to with her?

NARUTO

These few weeks i'm watching Naruto, back to watching the anime again, I downloaded it long time ago and only start watching it recently. Today, my frend came to my house, while watching soccer match, i watched Naruto at the same time, and he asked why i'm watching Naruto, he doesn't like that anime. I told him nice mah.

After he went home, i continued to watch until now, Episode 196. Although i'm quite outdated already, but i still watching it. When i was watching it, i actually thought of her, everything seems to link to her naturally. I started to watch Naruto at her place. She watched with me too and she like it alot, there's a few times we actually have small arguement for Naruto, caused she downloaded already and she watched it without me, lol....come to think of it about the small arguements, hah....funny. But now i'm watching it alone, i guess she has already stopped watching Naruto already. But somehow, everything just linked to her...I wish we can still sit down somewhere together and watch Naruto together, regardless her place or my place... ...

Wat A GF Is?

This is what i quote from my friend's(JH) Blog:

"Wat a gf is?
taken from what a good fren of mind said..

gf means, someone who understand how u felt
can cheer you up when you down
be there for you..
give u morale support..
friend is different
because friend also have their own partner
oneday your best friend married
u don expect him to b there when u down right
not just kiss or what
just a person, like UR HALF.

at least, this is what i hardly hear from people around.
either they look on surface, or never realise this.
other factors do concern..
but this really is something which we have to remember.."

Everything Originally quote from there....

D R E A M S

Dreams, everyone has their own dreams...what about me? I have mine too, but my dreams are shattered. Shattered by someone, someone who i want to be with, someone i want to share everything with, someone who i love, someone who give me everything i need, someone who make me feel happy and warmth, someone who i thought i will have a future with. That someone shattered my dreams, my dreams with her and myself. She asked me to find someone else, someone nicer than her. I used to tell her there are ppl nicer than her but so many girls in this world, there's no 1 is nicest. And she told me 1 thing, why can't i say a small lie to her and say she's the nicest girl in the world and make her happy. I laughed at the moment, but i told her that is the fact, no one is the nicest in the world. And the other thing is that i won't lie to her.

Now i wish to tell her that she's the nicest girl in the world, and i wish to find no more, even there's a nicer girl than her, there won't be any feelings for that girl. My feelings are for you, for you only. For the nicest girl in my eyes. Do you care about me? Do you still want it?

O R D!!!

Finally 4 more days to the big day, the day whereby i get to c my pink IC again. No more using the 11B....Yeahhh.....i believe alot BMT mates are as happy as me....LOL.......

Actually i'm not really happy, happy on the surface but, i'm not truly happy. Yah, get back IC and ORD should be happy, but certain reason just bring down the mood and happiness. How i wish i can return to 1 yr ago or worse go back to the day that i hand my pink IC to the army. How i wish that will really happen.

After ORD, come out le, is another new stage of my life already. M I prepared for that, i don't know. I could have a target and goal but now no more le, no more already, the motivation to everything had left and gone. I feel so....tired....really tired and feel useless now. I gonna find job le, if not no income, but i feel.....so hard to describe my feelings, maybe i can say, i feel so vex....really very vex....Maybe i need to cool down, maybe i need to leave.....maybe................

Liverpool to the FINALS!!!

Yeah.....last nite Liverpool played a wonderful game. Woooooo, they score a goal in the game and result in a 1-1 in total aggregrate. The semi finals went into extra time and kuyt scored a goal but was disallowed due to offside. But they won the game with a 4-1 penalty win against chelsea. Nice game they had with them, very exciting match.

Hope Liverpool will win the Champion league. Good luck to them.

Champion League Semi Final Liverpool vs Chelsea (1st Leg 0:1)

Today is the 2nd Leg of Champion League Semi Final, Liverpool vs Chelsea, hopefully liverpool will win.....Liverpool Go Go Go, But i think hard lah, as long as chelsea draw they will win liao...haizzz...Hmmm...the match gonna start in an hour time, later then i post the results here ba. So those soccer fans out there, wanna know the results 1st HAND, can come my blog and see, Wahahahahahaa....... Will put the results here later, Liverpool GO GO GO!!!